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| Love is patient, love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends... This verse has been a great area of testing for me on a level I've never imagined could happen. But I'm thankful beyond measure. There are some around me who don't understand why I've let this happen... That's okay, it's not theirs to understand. My God knows and he guides me every step of the way. I have no regrets... None. My heart has been set on fire in order to burn the fear away. I feel the heat and it is oh so painful. But my God is faithful in me and through me. He carries me through this time. I trust him every step of the way, hoping he gives me the grace to keep my eyes on him and not my circumstances. He has gifted me with this process. An honor I cannot refuse. A process that will reveal his beauty through me, draw me closer to him, leave me more at ease with the unknown and painful. Letting go, I think, is the key to love. Sounds backwards...just as it should... Please pray for me. Thanks. I love you. | | |
| I am officially entering a new realm of faith. My eyes and my heart see one thing...circumstances tell another. I've always relied on my eyes and my heart. Those days are officially over. I can use them to walk forward, but it does not mean there won't be a painful detour. I'm not sure how I will change my mind. I try...and I try...the pain gets worse everyday. The bruise on my heart gives me a headache and a heart ache that can only be healed by time. I must walk forward in the direction that does not make sense to me, crying a little everyday. Giving hope no hold on my heart for the desired path renders my soul confused, angry, and grieving. What can I do besides distract myself and thank God for the new faith at hand. I still ask God to convince me, to help me believe. It wavers everday. So I lean into his sovereignty and embrace the pain. Trusting him every step of the way. | | |
| I have officially been accepted into the Montana State University Department of Architecture!! Such an exciting thing!! This has been a dream of mine since I was in 8th grade, if not earlier. Finally, a big dream is coming true!!! Now there are two more left, at this point... but we don't need to go into that. I hope everybody has had a great summer! | | |
| I've been tagged by Holly!
Each person starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
People who are tagged need to write their eight things and post the rules.
At the end of your blog, tag eight people and list their names.
Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and
to read your blog.
Did You Know?
1. I secretly race when a friend and I are driving to the same place in separate cars. he he he
2. Worms make me nausious. 3. My favorite smell is the smell of the our mountains in the early morning. 4. I'm a Harley chick wanna be. 5. I've recently learned people aren't as scarey as they try to be. 6. Truth, Beauty, Freedom, and above all, Love, are the theme of my life. 7. I love leading people to freedom
8. I'm learning to love my nose. | | |
| Spring Dreamin' The last two years during the spring months I find I have an overwhelming amount of dreams that circulate around the theme of getting married or falling in love (to both man and women...yeah, it's a little wierd). Last night I was graced with a dream about Spiderman and Mary Jane. She was wondering whether or not Spiderman would come to her rescue in her time of need. Later in my REM sleep I was the on looker of Aragorn and Arwin. Aragorn had become king and was with another woman. Arwin comes along a bit disillusioned and heartbroken about the whole thing, only to find out the women with Aragorn was his sister (it was a happy ending). I try not to analyze my dreams too much, though I wish there was weight in my crazy romantic dreams. It could maybe bring some answers to my so far unexpected path of life. Oh, and Spiderman did rescue Mary Jane. | | |
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